Good Outlook for the Year
Monday, Jan. 09, 2006 - 3:01 PM

Well, it's 2006. (Has been for 9 days now, huh?) I think this is the happiest and most optimistic I've ever been going into a New Year. I mean, I've got the man of my dreams, the relationship I've always wanted. I've got great friends. And my outlook on this coming semester is go positive. I've got the medicine to help me focus. I've got the drive to want to succeed. And I've got the will to show Dan that I'm really smarter and a harder worker than he thinks I am. What else could I want? (Okay, more confidence and money would be helpful)

I think this is going to be a good year though. I'm getting into classes now that interest me, so hopefully I can do better at them and actual learn something worth paying for. I'm actually excited about working this summer (although, that might not last long once I start) and I plan to work five days instead of four this year (I NEED the money). I think I'm going to apply for a volunteer position with the NJ DEP (Department of Environmental Protection) in their endangered speieces department. I'll do that on my two off days (Yea, no relaxing this summer). I'm also hopefully taking a summer class that looks AWESOME. (Told you there was no relaxing this summer). Yet, mom and I are planning a big vacation to Canada/New England. I haven't been on a vacation in over two years.

Then there's the boyfriend. Tomorrow will be three months. THREE MONTHS! I didn't think my first real relationship would last this long. I didn't think there was anyone that could put up with me for this long. But not only has he put up with me, he's shows that he really does love me. He's what I need. His calm personality helps calm me down. His maturity causes me to grow up. And his praises make me feel comfortable with my body and myself in general around him.

You know what else is a perk about dating this boy? Going home with him! His parents are so awesome. They're so laidback like him. Very welcoming. And so nice. They are true country folk. Haha. Also when I go home is his brother and sister-in-law, who are both very nice people (and like NASCAR!). Then there's the grandparents that live across the street. Again, really nice people. Only issue with them is they're very old-fashioned with the old-fashioned gender roles, which I don't like. Yea, I'm a girl, but I love to get dirt, watch a deer get cut up, light trash on fire. I don't care if only the men used to do it, I WANT TO DO IT! But they tend to steer me away from doing those things, and it makes me sad. Still, his grandfather keeps making things for me (He's a very good wood-worker) and he gave me his special cookies that he doesn't give to anybody! Yea, I'm that special. Hell, last time I left Dan's, his grandfather told me to tell my parents that I might just have met MY grandpa. WOAH! Marrying Dan and I a little early there, don't you think? But his family loves when I'm there. I didn't think I could be that loved! Guess that's what happens when you're dating the baby of the family and the favorite grandson. Haha. And the boy that hasn't brought a girl home in four years!

I feel kind of awkward when I go to his town though. I mean, when I'm around his property, it's no big deal. It's just family, maybe a few neighbors, and a whole lot of nothing else. (That's what happens when you own 300 acres) Yet, when we go into town, it's kind of uncomfortable. Like, when we went to the bowling alley last Wednesday. This is a town of 3000 people, A REALLY small town. So everyone knows everyone else. Which also means that they know I'm not from there. THEY ALL LOOK AT ME! Doesn't help that Dan doesn't introduce me. He just talks to people as I stand there staring around or at the floor. His excuse for not introducing me though is that he knows how much I hate meeting new people. BUT IF I'M STANDING RIGHT BY THEM, THEN I BETTER MEET THEM! Silly boy, he tries to help, but he just misses it.

So, besides spending time with the most awesome man ever, there's another good thing about dating Dan. See, he's got 300 acres. A lot of which is just woods. And this boy LOVES the woods. He pretty much LIVES in there. He knows every little corner of them woods. Could never get lost in there. Since he likes being in the woods so much, I go in there with him. And I get more used to and comfortable with being in the woods. You see, I've always had a slight fear of the woods. I'm a little paranoid and I'm always afriad something's going to come out and attack me. This is not good when I want to go study wildlife for a living. You sort of need to be in the woods for that. So being with Dan helps ease my fear of the woods, which will help my future. HA!

Alright. This glasses are making me sick. I got a new prescription in them yesterday, and I think it's too strong. Either that or I'm just not used to them yet since I had the old prescription for so long. I don't know. But I don't think making me sick is a good thing. Phooey, I don't want to have to go back and wait another two hours for them to make new lens again. But I need them for school. WHY IS LIFE TO DIFFICULT!? Damn glasses. I DON'T EVEN REALLY NEED THEM THAT MUCH! I don't know why I bothered changing the lens anyway.

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